Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would go to sleep on a Monday and not wake up again until Friday.
So begins the biggest challenge of my life and it all started with a heart.
THE HART STREET GIRLS
MARY: The Good Girl
I met Mary Chilton when I was six years old. She lived about five houses down the street and had three brothers and one sister. All the Chilton’s attended St. Joseph the Worker elementary school while my brothers, sisters and I went to the local public school – Hart Street Elementary.
Because we were in public school, all the Rogers’ kids had to go to catechism every week. Then, whether you were in Catholic school or not, it was confession every Saturday and of course, church every Sunday.
This is where Mary and I bonded.
As soon as we were old enough, probably fourth grade, we rode our bikes to Saturday confession. Mary wanted in and out of the confessional, get her penance, kneel down in front of the altar to say her Hail Marys and then she was out of there.
Me, on the other hand, felt a need to tell Father Doyle every little infraction I had made since the Saturday before.
And I had a lot: lying to my mom, not finishing my homework, staying up past my bedtime, being mean to my sister, not finishing my chores, talking about a girl in school. Oh the list would go on and on. Mary said I was so loud about my sins, the whole church could hear me.
As a penance and probably because the priests were tired of hearing from me every week, I had all the long prayers to recite; five Our Fathers, 10 Hail Mary’s and throw in a couple of Acts of Contrition.
Mary hated waiting for me.
This is the beginning of at least one book I’ve been trying to write for a long time. The Hart Street Girls was (is?) to be about growing up in the suburbs, making friends and getting boyfriends, going to concerts, trips to Zuma beach, Little League games and being crazy about the Beatles.
All around, America was changing. As Southern California kids we thought we lived in paradise and were pretty sheltered from the world around us. We didn’t know about white only drinking fountains or integrating schools. Moms stayed home with the kids and dads came home with a cocktail waiting for him. Heck, even my brother had a really high draft number and was never sent to Vietnam.
We did have our secrets though. As our parents struggled to understand our music, why we didn’t wear bras or why we needed birth control pills, drugs, and Woodstock.
I remember telling Mary the book had to be about coming back together after high school, college, marriage and kids. She did have her battle with cancer and thankfully got it under control. This time it had to be big, I said. Someone needs a heart problem – hence the name of the street we grew up on – Hart Street – would play in rather nice.
Well, that seems to have made its way into our lives and that person with the heart problem is me.
I will be going into Cedars Sinai this Monday, July 13 (my lucky number). I have a fairly large aortic aneurysm – 9.7 cm – that has been growing over the years. Interestingly enough, my mom had the same problem and had hers repaired when she was in her 70s. This is pressing on my left lung and causing shortness of breath among other things. The doctor said it could burst within the next month and then that’s it. You’re gone.
You don’t find these aneurysms unless you get an ultra sound or something of that nature. I happened to get one because I couldn’t loose weight and was swelling everywhere. I thought it was the COVID 19 and I was just fat. Turns out it is a little more than that.
They tell me this surgery is pretty intense but I seem to have a good team who I’ve met and are positive about my outcome. Once I am put under on Monday, I could be out of it for a couple of days.
Charlie has promised me to wake me before the election.
So many of my friends have sent me their good wishes, flowers and special treats. I wasn’t go to say much about this that’s why it’s not on FaceBook for the world to see, but I’m bored right now and a little depressed and scared. I thought writing would be a good outlet.
So when you read this, I appreciate your good thoughts. My husband especially appreciates them because sometimes I think he was more worried than me. But he’s been a rock this week and is making sure I do absolutely nothing as to not cause any infection or rupture.
Keep a good eye on him my friends and I will see you before you know it.